Circle of light will be December 15, Thursday evening from 6pm-9pm.
The topic of this months circle will be “Handling Holiday Stress”.

 Hello Everyone
    Time seems to be speeding by, it is putting stress on many people and bringing so many stressful situations. We often wonder if we are cracking up under the pressure. I am hoping to give you a tip to help with the holiday situations that you may be facing. Many times we just don’t realize that there may be a better way to handle problems and situations that may arise. We usually react by getting angry, giving up, fighting, depression and many other reactions that absolutely make things much worse. These reactions will not help any problem whether it is financial, relationships, illness etc.
     The mind projects itself and the mind is the past. What this creates in your future is more of what was in your past. What does that mean? Whatever you have done in the past whether it is good or bad. creates its own repetition, for instance if you were angry the day before yesterday, you created a certain potentiality to be angry again yesterday. Then you repeat it again with more force and energy, tomorrow you will again be a victim of today. Every action that you do, or even think about has a way of persisting again and again. It becomes a self perpetuating cycle within the self. Then it becomes a habit. You live through the habit, the habit persists, it now has an energy of its own. The habit takes energy from you , but in the past you cooperated and you are cooperating in the present. The habit rules you. When you get angry, you think you are doing it. You rationalize it, you say that the situation demanded it. Rationalization is how your ego goes on thinking you are still the boss. But you are not, you have become the slave of a habit.  Anger comes out of old patterns, out of the past. When anger comes you try to find an excuse for it. You feel good, you feel bad, and these feelings are from your own unconciousness, from your own past. NOBODY IS RESPONSIBLE EXCEPT YOU! Nobody can make you angry, and nobody can make you happy. You become happy on your own and you become angry on your own. Unless you start to realize this you will be a slave to self perpetuating habits.
     The Mastering of oneself begins when you realize “I am absolutely responsible for whatsoever happens to me, whatsoever happens!  Are you beginning to see what I mean here? If you go throwing the responsibility on others, thinking that they are at fault, you are mistaken for how can they be responsible for your unhappiness. One of the most unfulfilled wishes in the world is to change others that are in our lives. Nobody has ever done that, it is impossible because the others exist in their own right, you cannot change them. When you throw the responsibility on others you will never see that the basic responsibility is yours. For example: You have a low paying job. Your boss is overbearing and constantly expects you to do more work for the same amount of money. You become angry and blame him for your misery. When it is you who continue to blame him when you should be taking responsibility yourself and maybe look for a different job, ask for a raise etc. By taking responsibility yourself you create choices, you cannot be angry at the boss, because he is just being himself no matter whether you like him or his overbearing personality. The basic change is needed there inside you. If you can see what I am saying here, If you stop throwing responsibility on others and truly see that it is coming from the self, you begin to understand that you and you alone have the power to change it. Then many things become immediately possible. Whatever happens to you. For instance, you may feel sad, just close your eyes and watch your sadness, follow where it leads, go deeper into it. Soon you will come to the cause. Maybe you are unhappy because your life isn’t quite the way you wanted it to be, or people in your life are not what you wanted them to be. You will find many wounds in you that hurt, because of these wounds you feel sad. This method of going back to the source, from the effect to the cause, will heal them.    HOW?
     When you go backward, the first thing you drop is throwing the responsibility on others, because if you throw the responsibility on others, you go outward. Then you will understand that the process is wrong, you again are trying to find the cause in the others.  You need to say why am I unhappy? Why am I angry?  Forget others, that is just an excuse A, B, or C did this or that, forget it that is just an excuse. Just go deeper into yourself, penetrate the anger. Use the anger as a stream and into the anger you flow and the anger will take you inward. You will find the wounds. The others you find fault with just remind you of a wound that is in you, something that hurts. You close the eyes, feel the anger, let it arise in its totality so that you can see it completely, What it is. Then let that energy help you to move toward the past, because the anger is coming from the past. It cannot come from the future, the future has not come into being. It is not coming from the present. The wounds come from somewhere in your past, somewhere in your memories. Go back! There may be many wounds, find the first wound the original source of your anger. It is there, all your past is still there.  Start looking at it. Go all the way to the root cause. The beauty of this process is, as you go back and feel a wound, the wound will be healed and you will know that it is not others.
     Why is it healed, because a wound is created by not being aware of it. Then whenever somebody give you an opportunity to be angry, you become afraid because it could happen again. Go back to the moment of the anger at its beginning when you behaved in an angry and mad way, You were unaware, realize what that created. In the unconscious those wounds have been preserved. Now be aware. Once you are aware of the wound you take back your power and you can then see it and it will have no more power to effect your life in the destructive way that it did in the past. You in effect undo the habit of being angry. By taking responsibility for your anger you heal the wound.
     This technique alone will help sooth holiday stress as many of us are unaware of the wounds from our past. Many of those wounds were created around holiday events and for that reason a lot of people repeat  old patterns when the holidays come around again. This will help you see that you can have choices by taking responsibility for your own stuff.  If you feel you need help looking back ask the angels they love to help with inner work. Also as you are looking back try to picture the old memories in your heart as this will burn away all the old emotions attached to any wounds you may have gathered. Last but not least be considerate to others, for believe it or not we all have wounds and kindness, acceptance and love also help heal old wounds.  May you all have a wonderful Yule. 

Jude